I hate the feeling that everyone around me has a future, like the know exactly what they want to do when they’re older…or even now. And I’m just stuck here trying to decide what the fuck I’m supposed to do. I have no clue what I’m going to do with my life. I don’t know what I want to be. I don’t know what I want to do. I’m just so lost in what everyone else is moving onto, and dwelling on what I’m not. I just sit here, alone in my own world…and the rest of the world is spinning, twisting, changing, going so fast…while in my head everything is paused. Or everything is moving so incredibly fast while i’m moving in slow motion, and my feet are in shoes made of the ground. Unwilling to change position, unwilling to try and grow and move. I’m just lost. Incredibly and forever lost.